At some point at the end of last month/beginning of this month, Joc's skin eczema started getting worse, like real bad, as bad as it was when she had to go for phototherapy. When I went with her for her consultation, I thought things were gonna be okay, because I think the last time, my mum got fed up since Joc wasn't really up for it. Unfortunately, the same thing happened again :/ I don't really want to go into detail about it, but basically it boils down to my mum and Joc not really seeing eye to eye anymore.
I guess it's because as much as my mum tries to help - with actual medical help and treatment - Joc doesn't want it, maybe she sees it as her being a burden, or that it won't work or something. I guess it's that sort of frustration when you offer someone help/advice and they just don't want to take it, for whatever reason. Of course, frustration brings about Real Bad Feelings, to the point that even when I hear my mum raise her voice, I get really stressed out by it, and you can really feel the tension.
Anyway, Joc's gone back home for holiday for the next three weeks, so it's me, my bro, and sometimes my mum who will be at home during most of the day. We're trying out this cleaning service for the next three weeks as well. They'll mostly do the vacuuming, mopping, toilet-cleaning, stuff like that, so I suppose I don't have to do that lol But I'll still have to do my part and help out of course. Yesterday, I tried my hand at vacuuming and wiping the floors (with that wet-wipe-cloth-broom-thing lol), but I suppose what we really needed was some ol' fashion mopping. Apparently the cleaners said their mops were all black after mopping lol orz There is the matter of Dal of course, so I'll probably be the one to walk him, sometimes feed him at night.
Also my bro and I will have to figure out how to cook lunch for ourselves, which I thought was gonna be simple to do, but I'm afraid of accidentally burning myself, from either water or oil lol That doesn't solve dinner though: so far the plan is to order in, which I suppose is okay, but I don't know how long we'd last. Yesterday, my sis came back home for awhile, and she cooked us 2-minute noodles lel And today my mum showed us how to cook the instant udon and other stuff with it, like fishcake, mushrooms, some vegetables, and some chicken. It was quite a lot of food though, even if it just tastes "eh". Tomorrow will be the real challenge for us, though.
That aside, there's also the sec 3 catechism retreat for their confirmation, so I'm helping out in that too. After seeing my mum tired and kinda stressed at the meeting we had around last week (it could also be because she just doesn't work well at night lol), I knew I had to do more, at least in some way. So I just do the "hard labour" stuff, like pasting the newspaper cuttings onto mahjong paper as its backing, or pasting sticker labels on the Jenga blocks for a game, or sanding down the Jenga blocks 'cos one of the boxes we got had some glue-paint-thing on them.
I suppose I could still afford to go out and get myself a job, (I was hoping to at least for June) but not all of them are that flexible with like, 3 days a week or something. Some require to go on weekends and I'm like gurl I can't afford that. Some places don't even state their hours. So, if I still want to find work, I might do that when I get my university timetable and work around that, as long as we don't have to go to school everyday. Also there's stuff like uni orientation camps coming up (even the NUS Catholic society has one held in my church lol) and Hans is coming back for five days in July, so
¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Basically I can't really go out for extended periods of time 'cos I don't know when I might be needed at home or by my mum.
Ah well.
