It's kinda hard to believe that it's already the end of March, huh? In just two days, I'll be flying off to France. People ask me if I'm excited for it, to which I usually say "eh" and shrug my shoulders, but I think that's just because I'm reminded of packing and having to take care of myself, when I just want to stay at home and play Story of Seasons ;w; I guess the other thing I'm worried about is how cold it would be and whether I packed enough warm things for it.
Anyway, last week has been pretty okay, at least better than the weeks before lol Eh, it might not be very interesting since they're just things that happened, but I guess I should write them down anyway?
My mum and I were invited by my piano teacher to have lunch with her cousin and niece, which was nice. At first I thought things would be kinda awkward for me, since I don't know my piano teacher's relatives that well, but we stayed for a pretty long time chatting with each other. After that, my mum wanted me to get new clothes, which I can't complain about lol Got two blue rayon blouses that look real gud, and striped legging pants. My closet is slowly devolving into blue, black, and white, with some red.
The next day (I think it was a Tuesday?) I went back to the lab. I don't think anything big was going on then. All lab lady showed me was how she did her cell lines. Basically, different kinds of human cancer cells have been recorded and documented in the form of cell lines, and these cells come from diseased patients from long ago (since cancer cells are practically immortal). What lab lady showed me was some of the plates she had been culturing, and how she created a new one from an existing one, since it's possible for them to overpopulate, and das no gud.
The reason why I say nothing big was going on, was because that was all lab lady had going on, in terms of lab work lol The rest of the time, she mostly had paperwork to do, so I assume she's planning her next round of experiments. I assume she released a paper too, (the one with the western blotting) so she could be following up on that after its publication. I should probably look for it and see if it exists lol Anyway, I read up on cell lines and the controversies behind them while I sat around. Basically it's about how scientists use contaminated cell lines but don't declare them in their published papers. So if someone's research paper is based on stomach cancer cells, but it turns out the cell lines used were contaminated with something else or mislabeled, they don't declare that has happened, so a lot of misinformation ends up spreading. Like some papers show that a drug intended to treat stomach cancer, doesn't work on actual patients, since the lab tests were on a completely different type of cell. And I'm like, y do u let dis hapen.
The biggest thing weighing heavy on my mind during the past week though, was my psalm. Once I settled the changes I wanted and all that, and finally did it, omg it was such a huge relief. When I went up to sing it though, somehow it felt like everything slowed down, and I thought I was singing the verses too slow, because it felt like the choir sung the response at normal speed. When I was done, I thought it could have been better, and when the members from the other choirs said that I did well, a part of me thought that they were just saying that - although I don't think they have any reason say something like that just unless they meant it c: As nice as it was to receive praise from people for it, I think what mattered more was my feelings about it. I was just happy that it was over, and I suppose listening back to it again (someone in the choir recorded all our psalms lol) I did better than I thought lol At least it's something I can be proud of, and if anything, what others have said was there to back it up.
On Sunday night, we went out to eat Austrian food, in celebration of (initially) my acceptance into NUS, and was apparently in conjunction with my bro passing his exams and moving on to his next semester. For me at least, reaching that night meant having my piano exam and psalm done as well, so it meant more of a sigh of relief to me. I had veal wiener schnitzel, which was tender enough for my metal mouth, and the poached pear and cranberries was pretty good to moisten it.
Aside from that, we've come to learn of Dal's many ailments. When we came back home on Sunday, we noticed him limping on his right side, which he had never done before, so it was a big cause for concern. My bro and sis brought him to the vet earlier this week, and it turns out he has so many problems: arthritis, ear and skin infection, heart murmur. I suppose part of it is our fault for assuming nothing's wrong with him, since we never really saw any problem with him, so we never brought him to the vet for the longest time. At least now, he's taking his medication pretty well, and looks better than he did on Sunday. The vet said that he should have four to six more years left in him, so I hope he can still stay around a little longer.
Apart from all of that going on, I've been packing my luggage for France. My mum passed me her tiny camera for me to use, and omg it's so smol, and I don't think the quality is that great? So I might use my phone camera a little more often, and to do that, I'm trying to transfer photos from it onto my laptop, and deleting the rest. I also had a micro SD card from my previous phone that fits into my current one, so that's pretty useful, and I sorted through that one too.
It felt kinda weird though, 'cos I don't know if some of the pictures are worth saving? I suppose I kinda want to save most of them, (even if they are poopy wa pictures lol) because I won't get them back again. And at the same time, it feels kinda weird having a completely empty gallery on my phone lol Anyway, looking through some of the photos made me realise how much fun I had in secondary school and the beginning of JC. Seeing photos of them then, and then thinking of them now, some of them have really grown.
I'm glad I had the chance to look through those pictures, though. At least it has made me see "what has been", instead of the "what could've been" that I've let myself stew in. Things aren't as bad as I had made it out to be, basically, and I think in the near future, in university, some things can be reformed and bridged again.
While I was looking through them though, I had a pretty heavy conversation with Daryl about friendships and needing attention/someone to talk to. I suppose the problem in the past, was that friendships were built on the fact that you see the same people five days a week, and once school's over, you don't really stay in touch since it's technically "physically inconvenient" to meet up. But at the same time, I guess growing up means learning how to maintain social relationships, too - just that I don't know how often those meet ups are supposed to be lol I do hope I can become a better friend, and surround myself with good people that I truly care about.
Anyway, I'll probably spend tonight going through the rest of the photos, zip them up on my laptop and transfer them to a thumbdrive lol I also need to rewrap my earphones (I do the friendship-bracelet kind of knotting on them lol), go through hymns for daily masses in France (I'm in charge of the "choir" since I'm among newbies that aren't in any church choir lol orz), and finish packing. Hopefully in France, I can find postcards too, that I can send to people ouo Also I can spam my instagram account with photos from France heheheheheheh
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